Hall of Us

 Today was hard. We've known for almost 3 weeks that our IVF transfer was unsuccessful, but today was the first time we have spoken to our doctor about it. I could tell my heart was starting to heal and out of nowhere the wound became dehisced. We wanted to find out the gender of all three of our embryos so that is what we went to the doctor for today. Even though two of them were genetically "abnormal," they were each still a life made from Carter and me. Of those two, both were girls. Let me point out that I am a very scientifically minded person who looks for the "why" behind why things happened instead of looking at things from a solely emotional perspective. I never could understand why people who miscarried early in their pregnancy could be so distraught or consider themselves a "bereaved parent." I think about how I used to feel that way and I am completely ashamed because I get it now. My IVF failed, but I still loved each of those embryos fro...

 So I have to level with you all. I went ahead and had my embryo transfer on March 29. Everything was perfect, transfer went great and we even got to see our embryo moving on the monitor. We were super hopeful. I took a few home pregnancy tests and they were all negative. I was a little down, but I knew those things could be wrong and I wasn't going to count myself out until I had a negative blood test. It was a long 11 days, but I made it. This morning I had my labs drawn and my HCG was negative. "Less than 1.20" to be exact and 5 is the absolute bare minimum to quantify pregnancy at 1 week. I should have been 2 weeks along so mine should have been over 50. Needless to say, today was not my favorite day. We discussed all of our options before we even began IVF and we decided that we were going to do everything possible to give us the best possible chance for success. We chose to do the PGS and we even did a mock transfer. We put everything we could into this and unfortun...